Friday, March 30, 2007

September




Your Birth Month is September



Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.

You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.



Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love



Your gemstone: Sapphire



Your flower: Morning Glory



Your colors: Brown and deep blue

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Gardening

It feels so good to be out in the garden again, digging up that dark brown earth. There is something terribly satisfying about getting dirt between the fingernails and something outstandingly serene about knowing one has put seeds into the earth that will pop their little heads up in a week or two to say hello. The digging and raking becomes a good workout and producing food for one's family brings a satisfying feeling.
Okay, that is what I have to say about my garden so far. I'll give more details when (if) things come up.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Update on Life


School and work
It is finally here! It is spring break! I didn't think it would ever come. The slow winter months dragged on and on. Actually, no, they didn't. It seems like just the other day that we were celebrating Christmas! God has blessed me with such a wonderful quarter. I have had such happy times at school. I have enjoyed my teachers and classes. God has blessed me and used me (if even in small ways) to show Himself to others. Now I am busying myself learning about homemaking and visiting with friends (my usual for break time) and finding a job (not my usual for any time) God is good and will provide me with the perfect job. He knows what I need and if He wants me to wait awhile then that is fine too. He has it all in His hands.

Home life
Even though there are some times of excitement most of life is made up of those ordinary every day little acts of love. Those are the most important parts of life. Sometimes those repetitive tasks are just necessary and even if they may seem unappreciated, God sees and blesses those who are faithful to fulfill those little necessary acts of love. The laundry must be folded, the toilets must be scrubbed, the floors will eternally need sweeping and the counters will continually need wiping down. God is terribly clever to put us into homes and He has picked exactly the right family for each of us. We will all learn exactly what we will need for our future homes from the families He has placed us in. He is working out His perfect plan even in those families that aren't perfect and even in the families that have a lot of problems.

Spiritual
God is teaching me two main things right now. One is to trust Him implicitly in every thing. That is not an easy lesson. I tend to lean on my own understanding and to fret about what tomorrow may bring (or not bring) and yet God is so able, more than able, much, much more than able to complete the work started in me. The other thing is to be faithful in little things. If He has given an assignment to me to go to school then I need to learn the most that I can. If He has a job for me, then I need to be the greatest asset to my employer that I can be. If He has given me an assignment to help my family then I need to be the biggest joy giver to those precious members of my family that I can be.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Spring

Spring has finally sprung. It has popped it's tiny head out through those bright and perky daffodils, skipped about with the baby lambs around our house, shone down on us in the sun, and rained down on the land turning every thing green and flowery. What a good God we serve to create something as gorgeous and mysterious as the entire landscape coming back to life again for another year. It is so beautiful. Go out and enjoy the spring!

Saturday, March 17, 2007

New Littlest

New Littlest sat nervously in her little corner of the heap, waiting for Old Littlest to arrive. Oh the suspense. She had heard so much of this Old Littlest. New Littlest was about to take the place of Littlest. Littlest was about to become Gossamer because of her legendary gossamer touch. Therefore, New Littlest would become the pupil of Gossamer and learn all about how to be a dream giver. So, she thought to herself I am about to become the student of one of the greatest dream givers ever, no wonder I am a little nervous.

Oh dear, was that the sound of the dream givers coming back after their long nights work? Yes it was, one by one the dream givers filed in and slumped down in the heap to sleep. New Littlest watched anxiously for Gossamer to come but she didn't come. Finally after much patience her waiting was rewarded and she saw the figure of Gossamer coming through the entrance into the heap. Elderly announced to the whole heap that Littlest had fought against the sinisteed. The other dream givers gathered around her asking to hear more about the evil sinisteed. “ I didn't really fight against them” Littlest admitted “I just gave a boy named John a dream so that he would be strong against their evil grasp. They came while I was still giving the dream so I bestowed it as quickly as possible. I don't really know what happened after that.” Littlest continued more thoughtfully. “I must have dropped to the floor, I was very tired. I imagine that one of the evil sinisteed must have kicked me under the bed as they came to torture John. I don't really know what happened after that except for that I was very scared and they made terrible, awful, horrible noises! Then it was quiet and Elderly came and found me” There was silence for a few minuets as the rest of the dream givers processed this information. No one had ever come as close as Littlest had to a sinisteed. The others in the heap were a bit amazed by
Littlest. They seemed afraid to come close to her. As if her mighty power made them unworthy of her presence. After the elder dream givers had talked for, what seemed to New Littles, a very long time. Ancient One informed Old Littlest of her new name-Gossamer.

New Littlest knew that she must wait until night for her and Gossamer to go out on their nightly rounds together, but the wait, the the agonizing wait. As if it hadn't been bad enough when she had been waiting for Gossamer to arrive at the heap, at least that had only been an hour or two. But this, this was hour upon hour of waiting, and oh, how could she wait any longerto go on her first expedition for giving dreams?

Well, finally the long wait was over and night fell. However, before New Littlest and Gossamer could go out and give dreams they had to get an assignment because now that Gossamer was Gossamer rather than Littlest she no longer had the same assignment as she did when she was Littlest. Gossamer spoke with the older dream givers for a long time. New Littlest tried to listen in. The elder dream givers were discussing with Gossamer what she would do next. “I want to go back to John,” Gossamer was saying. “he needs me” “But Elderly already has charge over that house.” responded Ancient One. “There is someone who needs you even more right now Gossamer. You must train New Littlest. Also I think you will find your new home quite adequate for training a new dream giver. After that you may be given the home where John lives.” “Alright it may be fun to teach a new dream giver. I just finished being a little dream giver myself.” said Gossamer smiling down at New Littlest.

Gossamer and Littlest were soon on their way to a house. “Gossamer” New Littlest began as they made their way along the dark street. “What are the sinisteed?” “The sinisteed are creatures that used to be very much like us, but then they were not content to follow the ways that we bestow dreams. They wanted to give dreams about other memories than we do. They wanted to know more about the people that they were giving dreams to. When they touched things in the people's houses that they gave dreams to, they pressed to hard and found out things that they shouldn't have found. They found out too much about the people. We don't need to know every thing, New Littlest, just the fragments that we will need to know to make dreams” New Littlest sat enraptured by Gossimer's story. “I feel very sorry for some of the sinisteed because some of them were not trying to be bad at all.” Continued Gossamer “Some were even trying to help people but they were not trained well by their teachers as to how they should give dreams. Some others didn't listen to their teachers and were careles. My teachers had to warn me about becoming like that many times.” New Littles was shocked “You mean that you could have become one of the sinisteed if you had been careless and not obeyed your teacher?” Yes, well maybe” replied Gossamer. “I don't really know. I guess that there is really no way of knowing. I don't think that it will be a problem for you New Littles. I think that you will be a very good dream giver. You remind me of myself when I was a little dream giver” “Really?” New Littlest asked. “Yes, very much so. Only I was much more mischievous than you. You are a very curious dream giver but you are not nearly as rambunctious as I was. Don't forget to have a little fun now and then” Said Gossamer with a wink at New Littlest. Then New Littlest remembered about the sinisteed again. “But you were very brave when the sinisteed came weren't you?” New Littlest said proudly. “I suppose some would say that.” replayed Gossamer modestly. “But the important thing is that they didn't hurt John.” “Who is John?” inquired New Littlest. “He is a very special little boy who needs a very good dream giver who can be very gentle and know just how to give very happy dreams. He has been very sad in his life and needs the strength of happy dreams. He was hurt very badly, by a man. His father I guess. This man beat him and his mother if they cried and he made John eat dog food!” explained Gossamer. “Oh,” was all New Littlest said. She didn't fully understand and all these bad things were new to her. She had never been exposed to any thing but happiness where the new dream givers were made. but she figured that maybe she would understand some day.
Soon they arrived at the house. First Gossamer then New Littlest slipped silently below the
door. It was getting harder for New Littlest to slide beneath doors. Her form was filling out and she was, in fact, becoming quite stout. New Littlest however slid quite nicely between the door and it's frame.

As New Littlest walked around the house she was amazed at every thing that she saw. She
wanted to touch every thing. She wanted to run around the house and glide her fingers over every thing. She turned around and around just looking at every thing. “The first thing you must know New Littlest...” Oh, Gossamer is speaking to me. “Is that you may touch things but for now you must only touch the things that have happy memories and you must always touch very, very gently.” With that Gossamer demonstrated as she delicately touched the faces on a picture. “Look here, this picture shows a little girl with her grandmother. This picture has many memories in it, there is baking cookies, warm hugs, reading books, and many other happy things. There are also some sad memories when the grandmother died but I shall leave that out of the dream I am creating. Some day I will teach you about mixing sad and happy memories but not for now.” “You can find all that in just touching a picture?” asked New Littles. “Yes you can” responded Gossamer “Now here, touch.” And thus began New Littlest's career as a dream giver.

Friday, March 16, 2007

My Thoughts

My head is spinning
As the world passes by
Yet I am anchored
Oh why can't I go with them why?

Because the One who knows me best
loves me any way
and will not let me go
Lest I stray away

He is the One that holds me up.
If only I listen to his voice
I shall not fall
But I must trust Him and let Him make the choice

Where will I go
What will I do
Why is it so hard sometimes
To follow after You?

I feel left behind
By the world's mighty rush
But your still small voice
Is telling me to hush

I must listen to Your voice
If I will know the way
If I'm not quiet
I will miss what You have to say

So I will sit still
And wait for You
Because You are the only One
Who knows me best and yet loves me too

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Dreams

Where do they come from
And where do they go
Slipping in and out through the night
Down the ally way creeping so
They will not be caught
Dashing quickly then crawling slow
Sometimes they give happy memories
And sometimes sad ones full of woe
Touching, creeping, bestowing, then
down the stairs and out they go
Out the door and down the road
They travel sprightly so
They will not be seen as the sun rises
During the day they must stay low
And not be seen by man nor beast
Because their work is secret Oh,
So secret these are the dream givers
Working long hours you know
Giving you dreams.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Bomb Threat

To everyone who has never experienced the thrill of a bomb threat, allow me to educate you about the sensation. First, you get out of your car and begin walking to your classroom (just like you do every day.) you notice that there is a large group of people standing outside the building. You think that is rather strange but as you get closer grange becomes stranger and stranger becomes all out weird. There is a group of about 50 students on one area of the campus and you can see other clusters of students around the campus. No one really knows what is going on but you can all hear the alarms going off inside the building and can see police swarming about the grounds. After every one is standing long enough to get rather chilly a police officer rides around on his motor bike and tells every one that they can either leave or meet at the soccer fields. You opt for the soccer fields wondering what could be going on. As you pass through the campus grounds you hear various rumors about fire alarms, pranks, and drills, but the most common rumor is that of a bomb threat. After about another half hour of standing around the soccer fields watching energetic college students, do what else, play soccer, and try to comfort those who are worried or looking for someone. Finally the school authorities come out and inform you that there will be no classes that day.
The next day every thing is normal. But the day after that you arrive at school and all the entrances are blocked off. Oh dear, another bomb threat. You would think we were the white house or something...but isn't it good to know that we have an all powerful God that takes care of us!

Monday, March 12, 2007

Charlotte's Web: A character Study of Fern


Fern Arable, a character in the book Charlotte's Web, was a young girl that, I feel, is very similar to the way I was as a young girl. One of the greatest joys of reading a book is to be able to feel that one is walking in the shoes of one of the story's characters. In many ways Fern and I are chums, kindred spirits if you will. You see, we have many things in common. Both Fern and I grew up in a family that raised animals and we both loved many of the same things: sitting quietly, watching the ones we love, swinging on large swings, going to the fair, caring for baby dolls, blueberry pie, and raising animals. One of the most striking similarities is that we both had imaginary conversations with animals, although, who is to say that they were imaginary? Yes, in many ways Fern and I are like two peas in a pod and I believe that if we had been next door neighbors as young girls we would have been the best of friends. Therefore, to understand Fern better, perhaps it would be helpful to compare Fern's girlhood and my own childhood and to think about how I acted similarly or differently as a child. I would encourage my reader to do likewise with their own childhood.


A girl of many strong emotions, Fern is like a mother hen when it comes to the ones she loves. She protects them with “ruffled feathers” and a fierceness that even a strong farmer cannot stand up against. Her father certainly was not able to when it came to ridding the farm of one particular runt pig. When told that a tiny baby pig would be killed because of the labor required to care for him, she not only defended him but took him under her own “wing” and cared for him. She thought long and hard about what would be an appropriate name for such an endearing creature. Once she had thought of the right name, Wilbur, the name was quick to come from her mouth. She even allowed it to slip out instead of the proper answer when asked a question by her teacher in school, Oh, if only I didn't relate to Fern quite so closely when it comes to what we allow out of our mouths. I, like her, have been accused of what is commonly known as a Freudian slip, meaning that although one means to answer one thing something else comes forth because that second thing was what was really in the forefront of the speakers mind.
When separated from her little darling she thought about him without ceasing. When with her adored pet she treated him, along with her dollies, like the Queen of Sheba, rolling them in her little pram around the country side. There are many aspects of Fern's love for animals that a reader can relate to. Like Fern, once an animal became dear to me as it could often be found amongst my baby dolls. It was not an unusual things for my parents to find me holding a kitten dressed in some of my most precious dolly clothes. For example there was the cat Peanut that got dressed up in baby pajamas and carried on his back every where that I was allowed to take him. I was also known to spend excessive amounts of time with a particular animal such as the dog that, beginning at the crack of dawn, I played with and trained for hours. Also, there was the parakeet, Perry, that sat on my shoulder singing with me for hours as I practiced my piano and harp lessons. There were other examples of unusual fondness for animals in my child hood. For example the the lizard that was snatched from a cat and became an aquarium friend for over a year or the many frogs that made their way into the aquarium. Between the cats and dogs and the wild animals that became little pets there were also the farm animals. There were the horses and the sheep. The horses were ridden quite often in the summer time. The sheep were never ridden on purpose but sometimes found themselves underneath a human body when in the process of being rounded up.


Perhaps if I looked into the life of Fern Arable beyond the limits of Charlotte's Web using my imagination I might find that she had many animals and that she loved many things about the farm and the animals raised there. Perhaps there were more pigs raised in the future by this sensitive young girl or perhaps the next year she raised a sheep or a cow. That is the beauty of a fictional character, I am able to imagine what the character's life is like outside the boundaries of the book. For example, I can imagine that Fern may have had some of the pets that I had as a young girl. Or perhaps I can dream about her having some of the pets I would have liked to have owned myself. These are simply examples of where one's imagination can go when given the launching pad of a good book.


One of the admirable qualities in Fern is her peacefulness. Although she enjoys the company of other children her true delight was to sit quietly among the animals and to use her imagination with them. She even went as far as to watch Wilbur when he did nothing more than sleep. It seems that she had a very mature side in a way. Although she enjoyed romping and playing with her brother, such as when they swung on the swing at the Zuckerman farm, she didn't need to have constant activity and to be entertained. My quiet time consisted of less time in a barnyard and more time in the woods. I could often be found in my old dress up clothes making grand adventures inside my head while sitting silently on an old stump or laying beside my old faithful dog amidst a grassy meadow.


This is, in large, because there are many seasons and stages in childhood and what may have been true when I was eight may not have been true when I was nine. For my own childhood it is truly hard to say whether I was peaceful or not. There were stages when I preferred to be alone quietly but there were other stages where all I wanted was to be active and surrounded by friends.


As the story progresses Fern is less interested in Wilbur and more interested in other children, specifically a boy named Henry Huffy. When Fern went to the fair she could be found, for much of her time there, with Henry. They rode the ferris wheel together and could be found holding hands amidst the hub of the midway. Like Fern, I also began to change in my tastes in companionship. I had many friends, particularly in my mid teens when I became interested in acting and made many close friends by participating in dramas together. For Fern there was Henry, for me there was a variety of good friends.


The fact that Fern was less interested in the pig must have come as quite a relief to Mrs. Arable who had been quite worried about her daughter. However, it is doubtful that there was any reason to worry about her. For Fern being a part of the every day life of the Zuckerman's barn cellar was what she wanted to do and was a natural part of her childhood. At first I felt sad that Fern no longer had an interest in Wilbur like she did at the beginning of the book. However I know that for my own childhood nothing could last forever. No animal, no matter how dear, was ever the center of attention forever. There comes a time in a child's life where the things that once were so important lose their appeal and new activities are at hand.


In reading “Charlotte's Web” we are introduced to many characters and although there are many eyes that the reader sees through, the reader originally sees through the eyes of Fern Arable. As a reader one knows what Fern is feeling and sees her inner thoughts as she saves Wilbur's life. It is only after she has raised him and he is able to feed and take care of himself that we see through the eyes of Wilbur himself. At the end of the book Fern no longer takes such an interest in Wilbur and the farm animals but by saving Wilbur's life her mark has been left forever. Fern Arable, a remarkable character, is one with whom many little children, including myself when I was a small girl, can relate to. She has a love for and a tenderness towards animals, she has a strong will and a way of getting what she wants, she also has a good imagination and a quiet, peaceful personality. Yes, I believe that Fern and I would make good friends. I hope that my reader can also relate to this amazing yet quiet character.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Fish, Time, and Eternity

A fish is not surprised that water is wet, yet we are constantly surprised at the speed at witch time passes. Therefore we must be creatures meant for eternity.
Loosely quoted from C.S. Lewis

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

I Will Follow

Yes Lord
But I''m so confused Lord
How do I know
Where you want me to go?

The still small voice
Calling me to Your perfect choice.
I listen to the world's noise
So many men, women, girls and boys

How will I know when it is You
Though you are so good to call and woo?
I know by Your Holy Word
Though the world tells me it's absurd

The Bible-God's promises to me
Beautiful, like rainbow, flower, and tree
Your promises are true
So You plan and I will follow through.

By Janel Gustafson

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Come

I heard Him call “Come follow"
That was all.
My gold grew dime, my soul went after Him.
Who would not follow
If they heard Him call?
Author Unknown

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Becoming English

Yesterday around 11:00 I made the realization that I was hungry. And thought to myself Why is it that we only have three meals a day? So I made a decision: I should have been born in the UK. No, I do not have any English blood in me (that I know of) and no I do not laugh out loud at every drop of British “humor” that I hear. It is simply that I have a great fondness for my afternoon tea...and my elevensees and my evening meal after all little heads are laying on soft pillows. I have an appreciation for tea but more importantly I have a soft place in my heart for eating often. I believe that gluttony is a sin with many consequences, however a few biscuits and a cup of tea can do wonders for lifting the mood and stimulating the imagination. Even better than becoming an English woman I believe I should become a hobbit. “Yes, but what about second breakfast?.... and luncheon? Afternoon tea?.....”(Pippin, Lord of the Rings Trilogy) Yes, I believe the transformation will soon begin. I'll become a hobbit, so don't be surprised if you see my feet growing callused and harry and my stature decreasing.

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